Well heeeeeeey. My name is August and, at the time I’m typing this brief little intro, I am 55 years old and sitting here in my bed after 3:30 a.m. living this vampire life, as always. I am a Washington, DC native now living in P.G. County Maryland.

I’ve been sporadically posting entries for about 5 years and have a whopping SIX (I think) to show for it (woo hoo)! I promise there will be more lol. I’m pre-menopausal, terrified of getting older, and trying desperately to figure out what this part of my life’s journey should look like.

I guess I’m just sort of thinking out loud rather than keeping everything in my head so, VOILA, here we are. Right now, I’m navigating mid-life and the struggles that come along with aging, figuring out how to be better, and what makes me happy (I need serious work on that last one).

I am a full-time caregiver for my “aunt” who has dementia and it’s an everyday challenge to manage her. It has consumed my life and it’s making this mid-life journey even more of a struggle to maintain my peace. It sucks. No shit, a lot of days, it REALLY sucks, but I make it thru… sometimes just faking it to get thru the day. Here, I won’t sugarcoat what it’s like or pretend that things are rosy on the days they aren’t. Of course, it’s not all doom and gloom, but I do want to paint a real, raw picture of what it’s like for me as a caregiver.

On top of that, there’s grown kids, adulting in general, old people problems, and just talking about how “life be life’ing.”

I appreciate you for being here. Hope you stay and maybe even get something out of it.